Day 8: Passions

I would say I’m a pretty passionate person.  Here’s the things that light my fire:

1. GT- it’s my career, so I’m glad. :)  I hate the way the education system so frequently stifles gifted learners.  No Child Left Behind, and no Child left unchallenged is my unofficial motto.  All children deserve to learn.

2. My faith- Jesus rocks.  I’m a fan.

3. My family.  I’m pasionate about being the best wife/daughter/sister/aunt I can be.  I fail at this more than i succeed, but i never stop trying.

4. Creative outlet- my actual passion differs from photography to sewing to whatever else I decide to care about at the moment, but I love having a way to express myself.

5. Life in general- it’s short and it’s precious.  I try to make each moment count.

Day 7: Dream Job (s)

I don’t just have one dream job.  I think my interests are too varied for that.  So, here’s my list of dream jobs and a quick description of each.

  • Stay at home mama- I think this is probably the most consistent dream job I’ve had.  I want nothing more than to devote my life to my husband and kids.  We’re working to try and make that possible at least for a few years when the time comes. :)
  • Marriage and Family Counselor and/or Adolescent Counselor: I think this would be an incredibly hard but rewarding job.  I’d love to counsel gifted children, but I’d also love to help families thrive. 
  • Cake Shop Manager/Owner: I’ve always wanted to own a bakery with my brother.  I just think it would be an awesome adventure, and his talent should be more celebrated than it currently is.

Day 6: (almost caught up!): The Hardest thing I’ve been through

Ironic that this was my topic for yesterday.  I would have given you an earful.  :)

The hardest thing I’ve ever been through is this back thing.  In many ways, I’m so lucky that this is the hardest thing I’ve been through, but I have to be honest- this has really sucked.  To go from running a 5k each month to not being able to walk within a few months, and the subsequent six months of recovery has been rough, to put it mildly.  I yearn for all the things I took for granted- walks in the mall, a trip to an amusement park, sightseeing, working out.  All of those are either out of the running or really hard to accomplish.  Instead, my life is filled with therapy appointments and planning my life around my temperamental back.  Not to mention, this back stuff puts a huge cramp into my newlywed status. ;) 

Yes, there are definitely some blessings that have come out of this: Bear and I are so much closer than we were before because of how much we’ve been through, we’ve seen prayer work in powerful ways, and I’ve gotten closer to a few people because of it.  So, it’s not been all gloom and doom.

But, I miss the carefree days before my back dictated my life.  I hate that Bear’s almost known me just as long injured as he has healthy.  I hate that I’m scared to plan ahead or commit to anything because I don’t know how my back will feel.  I hate that people have to cater to me and treat me like I’m 80.  It’s just hard to feel so young on the inside, but have a body that acts so dang old.

Hopefully, a few years from now, this will all be a distant memory.  2012 will just be the hardest year of my life that also had the best day of my life in the dead center. :)

Day 5 (catching up!): the 5 things that make me most happy…

  1. This man.  I didn’t know I could love someone so much or that I could be so happy, even when times are rough.  He is absolutely the best thing that ever happened to me.

 

 

 

2. Coffee.  I’m almost sad about my love affair with coffee because it’s really an addiction, but that cup of coffee each day just makes each day better.  :)

3. My cat Polly.  She’s an absolute mess, but man, I love that girl.  She makes me smile on a daily basis.

4. My family and friends.  I love them all.  They mean the world to me, and I can’t imagine my life without them.  I’m a lucky girl.

5. My students.  This year, I have a unique combination of kids that are both sweet and sensitive, mature and child-like.  For the most part, it’s so much fun.  I love being a part of their lives, and they make my day brighter!

Day 4: (A little late): 10 things I wish I could tell my 16 year old self

  1. You are way skinnier than you realize.
  2. The boys you’re lusting after will either turn out to be a. gay or b. a priest.  You’ll be fine without them. ;-)
  3. You will always regret giving up on friendships.
  4. It’s okay if you’re shy around guys.  The right one will appreciate you for it. :)
  5. Your future husband lives just under 5 miles away from you- and you’ve yet to meet him.
  6. You knew deep down the minute you stepped foot on LaTech that it would be special.  And, it really, really was.  So what if it didn’t sound prestigious?  It was the right place for you, and that’s all that mattered.
  7. Enjoy your family.  Yes, they’re crazy, and they may drive you crazy, but they rock and you know it.
  8. Ditch those glasses, embrace your contacts, and grow out your hair.  You’ll feel better about yourself. :)
  9. Don’t be so eager to grow up.  Life is a whole lot harder than you realize.
  10. And, finally, look closely at yourself.  Are you perfect?  Nope.  But you’re a pretty awesome person- your friends and family remind you of that often.  It’s time you started believing it yourself. :)

Day 3: My relationship with my parents

Oh, I love my parents.  I know everybody does, but I really love them.  They’re not perfect, but they’re the best people I know.  My daddy’s my hero and my mom is my best friend.  They’ve been married for almost 35 years, and their love and devotion inspires me in my own marriage.  They serve each other and take good care of each other, sometimes even when they don’t want to.  They have common interests (not all the same- but they share a love of food, wine,  travel, and yucky crime shows just to name a few.) and common friends and they genuinely like being around each other.   They’re loyal to their church and committed to their faith.  They’ve taught me that love is an action and not a feeling.  I’ve seen that clearly in the way they’ve dealt with the care for their parents, siblings, and us, their kids.  When the going gets tough, they get in there.    They don’t hide, but jump in full force and become the advocate.  They are/were extremely committed to their career, but value time away from work just as much.  I admire them so much.

Like I said before, my daddy’s my hero.  I think he can do no wrong.  His imperfections are mostly cute to me rather than annoying.  I adore him.  I always thought the reason I was so dang picky about the man I was going to marry was because they had so much to live up to.  My dad has always treated me like a treasure, and I wasn’t interested in a man that wouldn’t treat me the same.  (Bear fits the bill.  He’s so much like my dad it’s scary, but in all the right ways.  God is good. :))

My mom’s my best friend.  We talk almost every day for 20 minutes to an hour, whether talking about school, health, siblings, or anything else.  She’s been my rock throughout this back thing, taking off work to take me to doctor’s appointments, cooking me dinner when Bear works late, and altogether advocating for me when I didn’t know what to do.  She’s my mama bear and best friend, all in one.

So, yes, my parents rock.  I’m so lucky to have them, and I’m even luckier that they love me so well.  We typically see each other at least once a week, but I usually talk to one or the other daily.  The “leaving and cleaving” has been difficult, but I think we’ve found our way. :)

Day 2: (a day late): My fears

Sadly, I’d consider myself a fearful person.  I try so hard to overcome them, but I’m just cautious by nature.  I used to be TERRIFIED of heights, but I’m proud to say that repeatedly forcing myself onto roller coasters, jumping off cliffs, completing a canopy tour, and standing on glass floors hundreds of feet above ground have really remedied that one.  It’s still a struggle for me, but nowhere near where it was.

Other fears I haven’t overcome:

  • Crocodiles/Alligators: I have NO idea where this one came from, and I didn’t even know I had it until college when I lived with a girl that was obsessed with Crocodile Hunter.  I couldn’t watch the show it made me so nervous.  It’s continued into adulthood and I have trouble being around even large statues of alligators.  There’s an 8 foot statue in front of the real ones at the Fort Worth Zoo, and I literally hid behind my godfather because I couldn’t handle it.
  • My Back/My Health: I’m terrified that I’ll never heal.  I’m scared that I’ll be the way I am now- a fraction of my former self- for the rest of my life.  I hate being weak.  I try not to think about it too often because I want to think positively, but on the bad days, I worry so much about it.
  • Death- I’m scared of losing the people I love.  Bear, my parents, my siblings, my friends.  I know death is inevitable, but I’m terrified to lose them.  They’re my world.  I watch people go through the loss of a husband, mother, child and my heart hurts.  I don’t want to face that, ever.  I know that’s out of my control, but I’m scared of a world without the people I love.

Day 1 of 30

20 random things about yourself:

  1. I sort my books by color.  I know it makes no sense, but it makes me happy.
  2. I’m currently watching season one of Once Upon a Time.  Fairy tales will never be the same for me, but I love the show.
  3. We got a soda stream as a wedding present.  I love it.
  4. The S key on my keyboard is broken.
  5. I want to travel to all 50 states- I only have a few (5 or 6 i think?) left.
  6. Sneezing hurts my back.  Weird, I know.
  7. The Wedding Date is not one I would ever list as my most favorite movies, but I can’t not watch it if it’s on.
  8. I’ve cried at every Pixar movie I’ve seen.
  9. I hate to be scared- it’s not at all fun to me.
  10. I want to travel more than i do.
  11. We still haven’t found a place for all of our wedding gifts.
  12. I have a crazy love affair with all things tempurpedic.  Both my bed and my recliner are.  (Well, the recliner is a different brand, but the same thing- memory foam.)
  13. Although 2012 was the year I married my love, I’m not at all a fan.  If I hadn’t gotten married this year, I would vote it worst year ever.  With the wedding and marriage, I guess it evened out.  Needless to say, I’m ready for 2013.
  14. December and January include the anniversary of our dating (2 yrs), the anniversary of our engagement (1 yr), our six month anniversary, Christmas, and Bear’s 30th birthday.
  15. I’m currently experiencing a bread and baking obsession.  It’s all I want to do anymore.  Very strange.  I normally hate baking and prefer cooking.
  16. I’m also conveniently looking into a diet (anti-inflammatory) that would recommend all of the above stop completely.  Oh vey.  Not sure how that will go over.
  17. I miss my old jam-packed social calendar, but I hope I’m never as busy as I was again.
  18. I love jewelry and have a TON of it, but lately have been wearing the exact same pieces of jewelry every single day.  My other jewelry is sad and neglected.
  19. I leave the house before Bear is out of bed most mornings, so I get ready in the bathroom and get dressed in the dark.  This has led to a few unfortunate instances. (mismatching, primarily.)
  20. I really, really want to have a grown-up tea party.

my inner struggle

I consider myself a writer.  And, yet, for some odd reason, I’ve stopped writing.  I used to journal, blog, do all sorts of things… and now, I’ve stopped.  November is national writing month and many people write a novel during the month.  That’s way too daunting for me, so I thought that this might be an easy way to get back into the writing groove.  So, day one should be following soon!

THE LIST:

  1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
  2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
  3. Describe your relationship with your parents.
  4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year old self, if you could.
  5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
  6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
  7. What is your dream job and why?
  8. What are 5 passions you have?
  9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
  10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
  11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
  12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
  13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.
  14. Describe 5 strengths you have.
  15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?
  16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
  17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
  18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?
  19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?
  20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
  21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?
  22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
  23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.
  24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.
  25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
  26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
  27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
  28. What is your love language?
  29. What do you think people misunderstand most about you?
  30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.

currently…

reading  Goodness, Gracious Green by Judy Christie
writing    Lesson plans!
listening to the judges on Project Runway (I’m sooo behind!)
thinking I need to get my budonkadonk in bed.
smelling nothing.  It’s allergy season.  :-/
wishing that I could have one more day this weekend.  It was just magical. ;-)
hoping  my back gets lots better soon.
wearing long sleeve t, Rangers jersey, and PJ pants (I wore the jersey and T with jeans to the game, just changed the pants when I got home).
loving my husband. We just spent a wonderful weekend together and I was reminded once again about all the reasons I’m madly in love with him.  I’m quite the smitten kitten at the moment. :)
wanting Dallas Summer Musicals season tickets.  Can’t decide if it’s worth the money.
needing sleep- and yet I’m still up. :)
feeling content.  My life is so blessed.
clicking through facebook and google reader.