Sadly, I’d consider myself a fearful person. I try so hard to overcome them, but I’m just cautious by nature. I used to be TERRIFIED of heights, but I’m proud to say that repeatedly forcing myself onto roller coasters, jumping off cliffs, completing a canopy tour, and standing on glass floors hundreds of feet above ground have really remedied that one. It’s still a struggle for me, but nowhere near where it was.
Other fears I haven’t overcome:
- Crocodiles/Alligators: I have NO idea where this one came from, and I didn’t even know I had it until college when I lived with a girl that was obsessed with Crocodile Hunter. I couldn’t watch the show it made me so nervous. It’s continued into adulthood and I have trouble being around even large statues of alligators. There’s an 8 foot statue in front of the real ones at the Fort Worth Zoo, and I literally hid behind my godfather because I couldn’t handle it.
- My Back/My Health: I’m terrified that I’ll never heal. I’m scared that I’ll be the way I am now- a fraction of my former self- for the rest of my life. I hate being weak. I try not to think about it too often because I want to think positively, but on the bad days, I worry so much about it.
- Death- I’m scared of losing the people I love. Bear, my parents, my siblings, my friends. I know death is inevitable, but I’m terrified to lose them. They’re my world. I watch people go through the loss of a husband, mother, child and my heart hurts. I don’t want to face that, ever. I know that’s out of my control, but I’m scared of a world without the people I love.